i wonder why

i think i havent been up this late for like, a year plus?
amazed at this imminent pristine newfound joy.
haha.

anyhow. went to watch confessions of a teenage drama queen ystd and it sucked! terribly. its the worst show ever. its more like a show to allow lindsay lohan to express her talents. and this woman who acts as her teacher made poor attempts to liven the show up with her Act Hilarious scenes. ACT ONLY, i say. rolls eyes. stupid show.

i cannot believe we have mocks to sit for on the FIRST day of the hols. like, thanks. we needed that. to practice. for the goodness of our education. im sure we all comprehend that and no, we dont complain at all! no, not a single caterwaul for a single soul.

aights. i shall go snuggle in my bed now! :)

online to print the stupid physics notes that we have to print ourselves .. there's an error for the part1! -frowns-
anyway,
today's rugby was fun!
probably cos we were playing against our our classmates.
was more like a laughing session, really :)
carol and tings were hilarious.
and after that charlotte suggested we play contact rugby.
even more fun!
were pouncing on one another.
i like!
yayy.
:D

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

happy birthday yins!

my dear angel, though im like 2 hours early, decided to wish you now (im the earliest arent i HAHA) and i shall go type your letter now and strictly do only that. haha. i know youre gonna look at me weirdly and ask what The Spastic Kid is talking about! anyways.

that aside,
im actually very moody
and irritated
but for once
i shall not publicly rant and rave endlessly.

ARGH!
short and sweet.

i decide that i like the new blogger layout ! though it looks sorta kiddy.
im playing aaron carter's im all about you now. the song is so oldd! but it reminds me of steph and sq and those days (:

anyway.
my legs are so worn out. (i just looked at my legs instinctively after typing this and realised i have this receipt stuck on my knee! ._.)
another shopping day :D v. happy!
hahaha. as usual.
good buys great buys! according to yins, this is my kou tou chan!
silly girl. she keeps calling me The Spastic Girl. cos she claims that ive become very spastic all of a sudden. but its okay. cos for some weird reason, an expression from me can make her explode into giggles. while i stand there and stare at her in bewilderment. haha. anyway. went to the sph newsprint this morning. was frigging late i had to cab there! shouldnt have, actually. since our entire class ended up waiting for tings till 8 when we were supp to meet at 730! that girl .. dont know what happened to her! -frowns- seems to be MIA again.
anyhow, kiat and i went to rol+lainey's estate before we meet the others .. and troublesome me with all the extra bags and crap got this v. filmsy bag from lainey and i ended up tearing it (and having to scotchtape it -hides face- cos i actually tore it even further can you believe it. im such a klutz. which reminds me of how while fiddling with lainey's pen and amusing myself with it, i actually drew lines on my top unknowingly! so spastic! who walks around town with two black lines and a v. VISIBLE bold dark dot?? was being v klutz-y just now :( ) and then we finally met at dhoby ghaut cos we planned to eat at fish+co for yins' bday! kiat was whining all the way .. and staring at my black 'artistic' lines .. someone came up with the 'artistic' term to console me .. which was really sweet. haha anyway. we saw dinah+xin across the mrt station and they started screaming and yelling 'seah yi xin!' across ._. after that wai+qing+xiu came .. and THEN .. we waited AN HOUR exactly for tham yin har that birthday girl ._. were STARVING terribly! tummies going concave already. and were grouchy (or maybe its just me ..) feet aching .. hair messy .. funny mud cult groups roaming around .. and for me, HAND ACHING with my torn isetan bag -_-" when the GUEST OF HONOUR finally arrived, we headed for fish+co and happily ordered, sat back, watched mtv, talked, till we couldnt stand it anymore! the service sucked! it was PREPOSTEROUS. wai waited for like, more than 1/2hr for A TEENY WEENY TIRAMISU CAKE ! outrageous i tell you. and we got so pissed we were crapping, really, about how they were just preparing the bait and all to catch our fish and then take another year to finally cook our fish .. and all the nonsensical stuff. haha. shared the seafood platter with lainey! it was FAB :D yay i made elaine happy. haha. and the people around fish+co were v. entertaining its like watching mtv. this asian+caucasion couple have 3 kids who all look so different! and there's this certain one who is SO cute. we realised that all the little boys we encountered today were all damn cute ! haha. and the 2 boys started dancing (fish+co plays nice songs) and they looked really v corny. haha and if im not wrong, someone actually took a picture of him ._. we're like a group of deprived girls falling for little boys. yea and when we looked out of the glass house .. shocker. HUGE groups of muds were streaming toward this .. mall or whatever, and all of them were in SUCH eccentric clothes its UNBELIEVABLE. and there was this guy whose hair is probably 30cm or something and he separates them into 2 sausage-like bunches and wax them straight out! it was totally gravity-defying and HORRENDOUS. and it was dyed green ._. and as we were pondering about this weird happening around us, another huge group streams in and as it was obvious that the dress code was black, suddenly there was this guy dressed in bright yellow! bright yellow suit jacket, bright yellow tights pants that decrease in size as it goes down the ankle .. and oh, it doesnt even cover the ankle! its REALLY eccentric. everyone in ths glass house were gawking and gaping at this sudden invasion of weird people. and they all looked so bu shuang! thought it was a gang but it was REALLY such a HUGE gang .. probably thousands of them, im not kidding! we thought there was gonna be a fight .. so exciting! but no, they just sit around and CHILL, continuing trying to look bu shuang. v. scary! they really wear similar clothes. waipai and i were having such a good time coming up with stupid scenarios of what might be actually taking place. was hilarious! laughed for the whole day. too lazy to elaborate though. anyway, they look like malvolio (if you study twelfth night, yes that malvolio), by the way. ok not as bad la, but they all seem to have some piercing at their mouth and they wear huge black leather jackets with scribbles, same pants that decrease in size, same rubber thingies around their chest .. ??! ok i think i just got carried away describing this cult group.
anyhow. one by one dinah xin and the rest started leaving .. then it was down to yins wai lainey rol and i .. happily walked around and bought stuff! theyre ALL sales items :D even a brush from the body shop is on sale ?? yea, then bought a fcuk bag and this urban and co 'pullover' cos it was so big and puffy on me, it could only serve as that. darn cheap. went to guess and lainey bought this 20BUCKS denim jkt! can you believe it. guess is having this major sale but we suspect that they have hidden all the nice clothes! :( saw this V. nice jkt! everyone unanimously agreed it was really nice! but unfortch it costs 169.90 (or smth) and its the kind that people might look at you weirdly if you wear it around. and it also looks like the kind that you'll grow out of liking it within a year .. so i sadly tore my eyes away from it. haha and there was this shirt that was kinda cute but they all shook their heads! hmprf. i dont care yins must go with me to get my nice 10bucks shirt from far east that i spotted in this magazine displayed in naturally jojo..lol. that shop is really corny. haha and at topshop, they started draping those WEIRD HUGE LONG RETRO BEAD NECKLACES around me! and yins keeps pulling it back and i look like some monk! and they forced me to try even more shocking ones and made me look in the mirror and said that it was nice! MORTIFIED. and we saw elvis+blondie tops that happen to be really nice but not worth the bucks at all cos they look like those good buys you find at pasar malam or far east -fainted-
after so long. i just realised i sound like im talking to myself.
haha.
what a long day!
it feels like it was yesterday that i went to sph.
haha. yet another failed attempt to tan :(
and now i have my menses! overshare. but anyway.
annoyed.

and lainey was so funny! constantly informing me that i really should buy the topshop bag when i was contemplating between an adidas and fcuk. rest assure, dear. im gonna get it, ok? lol. its WAY too small to be a sch bag la! thought we were a weird combi but it was such a fun day out ! though i was really moody at the beginning. i think shopping ceases the existence of pms! haha. i cannot believe we spent 3hrs walking from heeren to taka to wisma and back and forth and back and forth again and all over again..

and im really impressed by the efficiency of the machines at sph! everyone should go look if they can. its v cool! to see how the newspapers are made. and we had the EXCLUSIVE newpaper at 11am when they only hit newsstands at 2pm! haha. i dont think i'll ever tire watching the machines functioning. was standing there and marvelling .. esp at the parts when the machine tie the newspprs without even moving the newspprs! and the part when they count the newspprs to send out. and the robots were amazing! though we almost got killed (ok. exaggeration..but it was qt scary!) when they started closing on us cos we got in the way. haha. v funny.

rol sweetie if youre reading this, i really hope youre feeling better now. cos you were so down just now, i felt so bad that as your friend, i didnt even know what was wrong! if there's anything, you can always let me know ok? and if you felt left out, im sorry, we never meant for things to turn out this way! guess we got carried away with our shopping ._. sorry, babe! smile k? i like my smiley sweetie (alliteration)! love you!

nana you nvr rply my sms lo you. -glares- and btw if you still dont know, you cant flaunt any of your html skills when you are signing off for smgk. -tries to supress laughter- i look at your BOLD 'im the coolest kid on the block' proclamation and look back at you, eyebrows raised. haha. anyway, marqueesabrina, poor thing eh. why all these insomnia over f+n? go sleep la silly girl. im really sleepy so im gonna sleep! and continue replying you some other day ok? haha. really sleepy la. how was nai's bday thing anyway?

what is this about sparknotes website being offline ??
hmrpf.
stupid mocks coming up.
im dying just thinking of them ..
a.math test was horrid.
but i expected that already la.
cos i didnt even study much for it.
practised a few questions but didnt check answers.
how smart ! way to go.
-slaps own back-
how do i even do that!
okay midsummer madness.
can you imagine if we have math mock too?
i mean, its def good for us cos it'll force us to mug
but i think i'll just collapse and die
cos theres SO much.
and my math is preposterously horrible.
AND of course, math itself is disgusting.

my sister just dozed off!
she reminds me of the other day in class
and kit kat + sweetie were sleeping too.
sweetie had really funny sleeping positions.
i traced her out and she was oblivious thru'out!
and kit kat was SO damn cute!
totally cherubic.
felt like marrying her!
ok i did not just say that.
it was just .. an attempt to express the extent of her cuteness!
heh. and then i remember tings scribbling those HILARIOUS love confessions on the board .. lol.
i decide that i like my class :)

i realise im like, talking to myself here.
haha anyway.
i just realised my purpose of coming online is to do some e.lit research!
which is totally not what im doing now!
-whines-
off i go then ..
-whines trailing ..
haha.

there's the oc ltr!
:D
-grins.

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today

Tomorrow it may change

hmrpf.
they have no poopoo crap on kotc except tht susan hill website.
i shall go off and do the chi compre lao shi have been nagging me to hand in ..

freda kwok you BETTER be mugging for your o's i tell you! -glares- okay who am i to say BUT! take out your book now !! heh.

everything stirs an ache deep down
and im trying to quell everything
but you aint helping.
i try not to think
about these thoughts
going in endless rounds.
i tell myself i dont
i dont need you.

came online because i felt a desperate need to leave my brain alone for a while. i think its very displeased that ive been disturbing it tremendously recently. okay, me and my rubbish logic. but im really stupefied at my physics results! yay, finally i get an a1! -widde grinn- but unfortch, its not counted for this term and im gonna fail my physics! cos i did really badly for the previous bloody paper -whines and prattles on incessantly-
the english paper gives me a splitting headache just thinking of it.
and everyone is so frigging competitive i cannot take it.
i feel like everyone's in this major race and when i slow down for just a few seconds to take a breather, im left behind cos everyone just goes faster and faster..
i hate sec4.
i really do.
and pe sucks.
its so .. i really should have stayed in traditional games.
touch rugby is pointless and a waste of time.
its a sad life that we all have to succumb to.

anyway. regardless of my sad life, i went to watch troy yesterday and god, it was fab! its like, the best movie ive ever watched or something. i really really like hector, who is actually eric bama. or was it eric bana? banana. ANYWAY. i dont know whats his name but he is so appealing. and brad pitt's bod is so hot :) orlando's character really sucked. major turn off. especially when it was HE who instigated the entire war which led to the death of hector -fumes- needless to say, was crying la. but so were tings rol and qing! maybe they werent bawling so extensively .. the point is, everyone should catch it! its really good. and that biatch helen who was also the reason of the war, is really gorgeous. she looks like a model. but i hate her! cos she indirectly .. or rather, directly caused the death of hector too :( and when brad pitt died, it was the worst. STUPID ORLANDO BLOOM! stop flaunting your stupid archery skills man. coward! -scowls- okay i think im giving it all away and people who havent watched are getting annoyed. hee. oh yes. when the battle began, it was quite hard to watch all the violence going on cos its kinda extreme! but after a while, tings and i stopped wincing. and the guys were very horny! except hector :) who was so .. nice to his family! and his son is damn cute! okay i shall stop singing praises in case everyone thinks im mad.
but it was a really rotten day
cos rol lost her wallet
then tings lost her phone!
i totally hate it when i lose things!
used to lose things practically all the time in the past.
poor tings and sweetie.

I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no returning
I keep comparing, you're always winning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

To sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

i just realised i could stare a lana lang all day and not tire.
esp the picture in my gbk! she looks so .. calm and sweet!
haha. er im not a psycho pl if thats what you think.
haha. tings just called me and my mum was rushing out to answer the phone. but i got it first and she was SO shocked that it was for me. you should have seen her expression. then she smiles at me and walks off. as you can see, my mother is actually relieved that someone is ringing for me. i hope she doesnt find my social life worrying. cos if that was the case, i can only imagine the impression of her daughter etched in her mind. a geek. good, but not good.
okay im really crappy.
but i really feel like im not good enough cos the pressure is so strong! what about math? and the english paper? am i supposed to even relax? i feel so weird leaving my brains alone :(

// and you know what they say.

ate so much dim sum for breakfast ! -looks at bloated stomach-
yum :)

playing//
usher let it burn
mario ft p diddy i dont wanna know
the corrs summer sunshine
TLC damaged

anyway. went to nana's house in the afternoon in hopes of catching some rays BUT! it got cloudy :( and im still the same old white chicken. v. annoyed. when we left her house the sun came out again .. like, thanks. um had fried chicken at her house and she cannot stop picking at the mushroom .. i think she ate all the mushrooms or smth! was busy watching tv haha. she claims that im a tv addict! which is not true okay. i only watch like, smallville sometimes (alliteration! haha) the O.C! and um other shows. she was Blue Girl -laughs- oh! her pup is so DAMN cute. sheesh. its the cutest thing EVER. after my favourite breed of yorkshires, that is. the fur is SOSOSO soft and its so cuddly! so cute! and it likes to curl near people's feet, i think. so when we were eating and only my feet was on the ground it came and snuggled at my feet! so cute right! and i was like, curling my feet around (??) and somehow it came and fitted its head at the arc of my foot! such a cute little thing -swoons- haha im like, falling in love with a dog. god. anyhow, we FINALLY left (though she didnt bring her MANY handphones..lol. inside joke) for woodlands library which was damn far away .. was caterwauling and whining on and on. haha. how irritating. finally reached and were greeted by this 'little boy' quoting from nana -rolls eyes- it was really this MAN who is kinda .. down syndrome or something. and he was hysterical! screaming and shouting and causing a din la. and the librarians were damn evil i tell you. the receptionist immediately dialled for security and he ordered him out of the mall! unscrupulous! and then nana got all worried .. claiming that she has this nagging feeling that he lost his mother or whatever .. anyway we went and got my favourite drink AND nana bought the mango tart (after MUCH contemplation! -narrows eyes-) and choc elcair. (the evil librarian shooed us out! but nana .. ever so scheming, managed to scrape both of us through haha) i did some integration(can you believe nana thought differentiation was DISintegration?? -faints!-) .. got hell distracted+restless. so after doreen tan and her darling dilly-dallied back, we went to the shelves! however, owing to the fact that i debted 7bucks to the library for overdue books, i cldnt borrow a shit! hmrpf. they did their f&n research and we (meaning nana and i ONLY..doreen tan, being the busy attached girl, went to her darling's house i think) left. oh and we were trying to scare ree! but unsuccessfully. haha. went to the shelf behind where she and her darling were and nana pushed a book from the shelf in their direction right behind ree .. unfortch, her darling saw and said HI! -slaps forehead- so after a few minutes of conversing we left The Cavewoman Without A Computer and her Boyfriend Living in the 21st Century With A Computer for sab's place. her maid cooked some jap noodle that was reeeaally good! and a huge pkt of hor fun. while i lay on the sofa, nana switched on the tv (not tv addict ok! its a VCD), brought the food in front of us while i watched Bring It On, unmoving. heh. was too tired to even move an inch. and boy, can sabrina whee eat. she was happily chomping and practically gorging herself with food the entire day! while i sit there watching her in amazement she fixes her eyes on the cheer routines on the screen, unfazed. was v. amused. she also amuses me with how BIG her head really can get. she goes on and on about how all the Jungle Land in singapore are maintained that way because they are for her to build her big bungalows in the future .. and that even if i steal her stuff it doesnt bother her the teeniest tad .. cos she has many other more acres of land! and she does her funny expressions. anyway. we both decided that Toros' cheer routine wins the other green team (forgot what name) hands down. the other team was like some gymnastics performance! but it was really fab la. i like! even though i watched it numerous times at steph's place. yay and i like cliff! nana was like rolling her eyes when i went So Cute! haha. typical scene. by then it was around 10+ so i left .. and since nana is so ever COMPASSIONATE AND KIND, she walked me out (believe me, its a long and SCARY walk out at night with all the gargantuan trees wavering their leaves .. eerie atmosphere .. not good for the weak-hearted haha) and even SCALED the overhead bridge with me! i choose to ignore the continuous complains about how she 'wants to sit down and sleep' on the ground wherever we were i.e on the road / at the overhead bridge .. haha. took so many public transports! ok not alot but it seemed like we were always on the bus with our legs up and yakking away or in the train dozing off. whoa. unknowingly typed such a long entry!
spending my day with nana, i like! (:

i keep thinking about how nana claims that rubertism (however you spell it) can be caused by constant cracking of knuckles! i try to refrain from my natural instinct to crack my knuckles .. and i realise i crack my knuckles like, 7,8 times 7hours unknowingly! and im not even sure if i cracked them even more cos i never really noticed i was doing it. how strange.
haha. and my sister has this uncanny attraction .. mosquitoes never quit bugging her! she has 16 bites when she went sentosa ystd -everybody go 'whoa'- haha.
the room's damn stink now!
we're all sniffing about trying to discover the source of it.
-holds nose-

my sister just informed me that every woman can give birth to 16 kids during her reproductive age! hmm.
pig or what?

tsk. can you believe im waiting for my song list in limewire (which is damn long) to end
then go back to mugging?
where is the impetus wendy toh.
i just caught s glimpse of myself in the mirror
what a wrong choice !
my pimple plantation is getting out of hand.
OILEEEEE face.
and my hair is a catastrophe!
drats.
my reflection is a living nightmare.
i just wonder ..

suddenly thought of friday!
:):
take your pick.
drowning in a mixture of emotions
but in a good way.
tings keeps sneaking peeks at me and
as usual
we end up in a mini fit of laughter
whether i was smiling to myself stupidly or not.
im sprouting nonsense.

gtg back to mugging soon .. -dread devours me.
haha.

I try to discover
A little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain
From breaking my heart
I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
That you give me no reason
That you give me no
Soul, I hear you calling
baby please
Give a little respect
To me
And if I should falter
Would you open your arms out to me
Don't you tell me no

was pretty happy
but right now
im riding on a low.

god, its so hard
to even try.

i cannot stand this.
i feel left out.
there i said it.
its been like, what. months.
no, you guys never do notice.
maybe you do
then you obviously dont know me well enough.
we're like strangers now.
sometimes you try
but most times you dont.
its like,
yea. of course.
// im perfectly fine
AND HAPPY
in my own little world.
with my HAPPY LITTLE SMILE.
im sick of making up excuses for your absence.
i dont need this extra crap on my back
weighing me down.
god im so disappointed.
sometimes when even the most tenuous bonds break
shifting from where you carefully place them
you realise things never the same
and it shakes your faith
from right where you once stood.

forget it.
im just going to sleep.
impugnation
is all i feel.

Cigars in the summertime under the sky by the light
I can feel you read my mind
I can see it in your eyes under the moon as it plays
like music every line
There's a rug with bleeding dye under the fan in the room
Where the passions burning high by the chair
with the leopard skin under the light
It's always Penny and me tonight

On the plane step up with both my feet
Riding in seat number 3 on a flight to NYC
Got my bean in a coffee cup next to my seat
Catch the view and another good book to read
Sending me home on the friendly skies
Missing her eyes
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight
Staring at a million city lights
But it's still Penny and I all alone beneath the sky
Feel the wind brushing slowly by
If I could soar I'd try to take these wings and fly
Away to where the leaves turn red
But no matter where I am instead
Singing along to feeling alright
We'll make it by in the pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly
close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny likes to get away and drown her pain in lemonade
Penny dreams of rainy days and nights up late by the fireplace
And aimless conversations about the better days

Singing along to feeling alright, yeah
We'll make it by in the pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight

nice song! :)

nana nana! hope youre feeling better already ._.

fuck. damn worried that my comp contacted another virus or something.
hate those assholes out there with nothing better to do than to screw up people's comp.
and inconscienable (however you spell it) people who go round stealing people's things and making people's lives miserable! if youre that poor, go find your way to the homeless shelter. all the psychopaths.
poor nana.
anyway. eschewed from blogging for only a week and suddenly blogger has a new template! haha. prefer the prev one though. this one's like, so foreign!

im convinced that im suffering from excessive hair loss! which confirms my worst fears that i have cancer! -frowns-

finally done with chem+physics test..totally fried my brains mugging.
and now there's math next week .. along with h.chinese!
sigh.
this is a vicious cycle.

was in town with tings just now
watched van helsing
our hearts were like, practically jumping out.
gaping and gasping
and not to forget how we tried to control our bladders haha.
the tension from the screen was so palpable.
the show is damn shocking!
kate beckinsale is so pretty !
love her eyes.
were doing some catching up (since shes just returned to school)
and we bitched talked till we forgot the time!
okay we were gossiping.
but just A TEEEEENY WEEEENY LEEEEEL bitty bit!
anyway, tings, if youre reading this .. dont worry about your physics la! dont mourn till you get your results back! you never know :) no worries, babe. i'll .. buy you poifull okay? haha.
oh! which reminds me.
was mugging in school with tings kiat and elaine ystd!
and the motivation was none other than my POIFULL SWEETS.
haha. was fun despite it being a mugging session!
first time in like, years, that i stayed back in school till almost 7.
i still cannot forget kiat's funny dance!
hahaha. hilarious. lol.

my mum bought this foot reflexology thing!
and this eye massager.
hmm :)

can someone tell me why when i try to find hansen's new song to download they only have porno on this person called tanya hansen?? oh! i realised its hanson. hee.

dont wanna get hooked on you again
dont wanna go through the turmoil again
dont wanna drown in this pool
dont wanna think about you

sj was quite fun today! actually it was more like study session between kiat yins and i la.
um yins the teacher gave us pop quizzes? and conducted lessons on alkanes and alkenes!
and she said we were excellent students (:
haha.
and i entertained them with my traumatic bikini experiences.
laughed till our mouths ached and stomach 6packed.
haha.

but i guess i was kinda drained
or maybe i was sick of roaming around like some loner (whats new) to the venues for the lit seminar.
actually,
what venues.
i only went to the mpr.
which was REALLY boring after some time.
tho i must emphasized that i diligently scribbled some notes!
so my group members, heave your sighs of relief haha.
oh, there was this guy from presb. high who was THIS tall.
like whew. i was LITERALLY a hobbit next to him.
he looks like he stepped out of the slamdunk comic.
anw.
towned after that
yins got her flats.
i saw a nice pair of flats to buy too.
then we ate pastamania.
and we went home ::
hope my face wasnt like a black piece of charcoal.
was moody, somehow.
oh well.

growls. i cannot stand the bloody popups.
pop away elsewhere!
sheesh. it takes THIS long to delete an account.
and it seems to be unresponsive.
-pokes
hello hello.
hmrpf.

N A N A you signed twice! -LAUGHS AT YOU- haha anyway ++ okay now i know The Doreen And The Bone story..you shitass la. madness. you think you ms gwee! anyhow fling things at people at the econs room! haha yesyes rest assured im gonna BE THIS WAY and REFUSE to play air hockey / pool with you -smiles innocently- on a different note .. im telling you, one of these days im gonna just collapse if i continue wearing this phony smile on my face. its weighing me down like crap -stomps around- yea and i shall announce this GOING OUT WITH NANA .. I LIKE TOO (: um, though i dont really get the lamp post (??) thing?? is it supposed to be funny? -laughs- or just an expression? -expressionless- ok whatever, wendy. i can say it myself .. see! i read your mind! haha.

I know I'm kind of strange
To you sometimes
Dont always say
Whats on my mind
You know that Ive been hurt
By some guy
But I dont wanna mess up this time

And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think Im kinda scared
Cause I don't want to lose you
If your really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
Its nothing to you

My hearts at a low
Im so much to manage
I think you should know that
Ive been damaged

yayy!
kiat went through the whole process with me to clear the damned virus :))
yippee
thanks, girl!! -hugs!-
was grasping on to the phone for like an hour or so.
pretty sure my left brain cells are killed or something.
radiation from the comp and the mobile at the same time.
BUT!
im no longer a tribal woman in the cave -huga huga- haha.
but er
maybe i should just cross my fingers .. and my toes before i start rejoicing and exulting happily here. just in case!

im using my sister's account and i just realised her msn picture is a photo of 2 horses!
fainted.
i hope nobody talks to me and see my horses.

anyway school was damn slack today
didnt really have many lessons
but math went on as usual (whats new)
was at the mpr
and yimin claimed to dedicate some song at power98
but the dj didnt mention any shit!
needless to say
we were all huddled at the radios waiting for the dedication to be read out
but no.
never happened.
haha.
unjustified negliglance.

anyway we found out the extent of how act-cool and attitude the sec1s were today.
it was bewildering!
but whatever.

was in town with dada today!
after so long.
caught tad hamilton show
and kate bosworth is such a good watch
though the show is such a typical cliched story.
bought bikini at buttcheeks! :D
lovelovelove it.
oh and we went sasa and returned feeling rather pleased.
haha.
freda is such an indecisive girl
i cannot stand her sometimes.
i have to leave her to stand around and ponder on her decisions!
mean, i know.
gulps
haha.
saw lex again today.
numerous times!
haha. realised she+sharon dyed the same hair color!
so cute! they look even more .. identical.

yayy talking to mama jess now :)
(obv i changed the horsey pictures..)
havent seen her in AGES!
there's the lit seminar thing tomms.
and it feels so wrong to be scribbling notes and listening to some bespectacled geeks rather than be at the singapore american school rooting for tings :(
especially when she has always been there for my critical moments when she could.
edictions that have to be followed.
do your best, babe.
hope you get my smses and ring me!
or something.
things sure arent the same without her.
i wonder how its gonna be in the future.
i wonder..
i think that..
i shouldnt think.

takes in a deep breath.
i have to type as fast as possible before my comp shuts down!
some stupid virus corrupted carol+my comp n now we so miserably cannot go online or the comp would instruct us to shut down within a minute! its a windows xp virus n if you have the solution to this bloody prob, help us! thanks :)